OH MY GOD!

oh gosh! she's getting from worse to hopeless, getting united to shattered, getting so many disputes and. and. and everything bad! i hope she would be able to change~ something urge me to give her up but looking at my friends, i told myself that i never will let my emotions take over my mind! hais. wanna help her also difficult. i'm quite disappointed that the few sec one batch that is after my batch is getting from bad to worse. their attitude is very very bad! they are so god damn selfish. i can't believe what i see in them. hais. it's only the starting of the year. what's more, i heard from gary that whenever they see their senior, it's like seeing a ghost! ohh my god. are we that creepy? hais. i'm also sad that i can't attend the sectional practices, that means lesser interaction with my new sec ones. my skills are getting from worse to hopeless too.. hais. why is orchestra becoming like that? hais. i realy hope that this is only one obstacle that is coming our way and that we can overcome it sooner or later! hope that we can get a gold for next year's SYF. hope so! ohh yeah~ today, mdm lu screamed at us. all i know was i came out of the store and tune my instrument for a while then she come in and scream at us: "told you to go to the hall already right?" something like that. maybe she's having PMS. well, who cares. as if she ever cared for orchestra! how i wish mdm ng or mdm ong are in-charge today. hais. i miss the old orchestra! *hur hur*

anyway, i'm drinking coconut now! hahas. *slurp slurp* 8) hehes. after orchestra, went to hougang mall with fengni. chatted, listen to her, saw many many former schoolmates some i like some i don't and getting drenched! urg~ i was so damn wet. think i'm gonna be sick because after getting wet, i when home into my parent's air-conditioned room. then slept for about thirty minutes then went straight to have a bath. *bur* i'm still tired though. there are so many homeworks! ohh my god. hais. there's Amaths, Emaths, English, Chinese and. and. hmm. for the time being, i can't remember. ohh yeah! Computer Studies. hais. saddistic! so many things to do in such short period of time.

help me! i don't know what to do. i'm suppose to settle the money for the trip to the audition. i'm pathetic! hais. mdm ong can only pay for the going trip but then how to divide in order to make it fair for all of us. hais. i shouldn't have paid. wasted!

think i'm done for the time being. wahahas. =] i miss 'ta' !