somethings.

yesterday, i suddenly recalled something.
something i shouldn't be bothered about. something i shouldn't even remember.

i just don't know why it came across my mind. it's real disheartening.
like you once thought you owned something but at the end of the day, you realised that you actually have nothing but yourself. it's like you and your buddies were trying to grab for the stars. you thought it's going to happen. you put high hopes. treasure the moments. but at the end of the line, you find out that they were already ahead of you. almost reaching the stars but you? still standing miles and miles away from them.

i really don't know what is this. what is going on in there. what is it really expecting. what it really wants. suddenly, it feels totally insecure with no real empathatic soul to turn to. it's trapped. trapped between the cheerful and sadistic side of it.

do you know?