what the hell..

it's been such a long day for me. woke up rather late today at 1115. was suppose to expect xiaoxuan and fengni at 1130 but guess what? both of them were late. hahas. then had breakfast together. ate instand noodle. hahs.
finished our meal at 12 plus going 1300hrs then we tidy yourself and went to start our first mahjong session! hahas. had tons of fun winning 2.20!! hahas. that is certainly an achivement for one who doesn't win a cent or one who cannot take it for a long seat on the chair thinking what to discard next. lols. ohh yeahs. before me winning, there were my sis, xiaoxuan, fengni and i playing but kept losing because my sister didn't allow us to win.. she kept ending the game within fifteen minutes. and all three of us kept paying her for her winnings. can't believe that she is a real good player. hahas. then after three to four rounds, we surrenderred! we quickly called for mr. BIG head to reach my house. but the three boys only came at 1300 hrs plus. that's when i started to have a little luck. hahas. first round sucks! i didn't really win any round until the second wind (nan feng). lols. well, we made hell lot of noise today on purpose because we wanted to drown my sister's friends noise. hahas. but in the end only two came.
one who really entertained us.. hahas.

after the mahjong, gary samuel jianhui fengni me and xiaoxuan went to hougang sports hall to have our badminton session. played for half and hour and left for a meeting held in paya leba CC (or whatever it is).
reached before 1700 and waited for jason and huiyi with chaihuat, huiyu and yufang. didn't talk much but i guess i did voice out a bit bahs. anyway, there was suppose to be a so called picnic tomorrow at 1000hrs but i can't make it because i have a medical appointment at 1430. kindda sad though. but heard that it's a trial for the actual picnic on the 16th. guess it's not that bad. been having this strange feeling that being in the committee is not as good as i thought. i think there are some misunderstanding and unhappiness between each other these days inside of the committee. maybe i'm being too sensitive? well, i don't really feel involved in anything so i guess i just try to come in handy whenever i am needed it's obvious people feel reluctant to include me in activities. hahas.

come to think of it, i'm now rather afraid to live in the world of girls. hahas. it has been a quite bad experience if you ask me. maybe i'm too sensitive but it seems like girls can really be two headed. wonder whether i'm like that too. hahas. maybe i am?

i can't believe what i've just read. is it me or is it obvious that the person is referring to us? disappointed? what is the meaning of that? you have changed. now, you're like her. how can someone so nice change into someone as bitchy as her at such a short period of time? gosh. i can't believe it. it's just luck that i'm no longer as close to them anymore. it's always the same lame insult or to them, joke.
what has happened to you? maybe you have always been like that. maybe it's because i didn't realise that real person in you. tsk. you forever look so calm and nice but scary sometimes but i didn't expect you to be so.. maybe i should have guessed it. you always go with the flow. seldom have strong stand and can easily be influenced. maybe this is why you sometimes, somehow bad mouth people. at least i know it always starts with her.
i really don't understand what is going on in her mind. is everyone around her really bad people? are all of her friends liars? she's like forever suspecting her friends. it's luck that i'm not in the same class as her. phew. how can she take her? i bet she doesn't even know that she also bad mouth her. maybe they are too close that she don't realise that if one can bad mouth many others, they can even bad mouth their closest friend. she's a total weirdo. she's the one always showing attitude but in the end, she's spreading propaganda about people showing her attitude. just can't take her some times. forever suspecting her friends and/or bad mouthing them. when will she realise that friends are very important in life? first, she tried to snatch her from fengni. well she did it and so what? second, she's forever asking people what homework they have done and so on. if you wanna ask then trust their answer. no point questioning them three four times for the same answer. do you know the word "i-r-r-i-t-a-t-i-n-g" and the whole meaning of it? maybe people don't reject you, but many people have been telling me that you are a real pest! i don't get why so many guys like you. maybe because you look civilised and quiet and maybe somehow sweet. well, i regret not listening to haniza to really avoid you. you can really make one sacrifice their stuffs just for you. good thing i haven't lost any friends. :)

i guess this will be the longest post for this month le. hahas. anyway, those who actually read my posts, i'm not pin-pointing on one person. i guess it's rather obvious to see that i'm talking about two different person. it's like one being underlined and the other in bold. well, to be frank, i don't really like the person in bold but i miss the fun times we had together not ill-speaking of anyone. well, i do badmouth people but i don't know why i will tell that person i've bad mouth the things i've said. weird right? hahas. especially yanling i should say. =]

well, it has been a difficult time for me to type this whole while. my maid is sound asleep here a few minutes ago and i had to type softly.. good thing that she has went to the washroom now. hahas. anyway, i think i'll end my longest post for this month here. =]

ohh it has passed mid-night! hahas. this post is suppose to be on the june, 02, 2006 not june, 03, 2006. hahas. anyway, who cares!

nites. XD