Monday, June 11, 2012

Mentally Exhausted.

It's shockingly interesting how my thoughts and my feelings are such contrary. I thought I wasn't bothered but, I felt weird and uncomfortable. I even gave myself a great surprise when I felt tears rolling down my face.

For the first time. :/

I don't remember it being this hard.

Or maybe, it was.

I find it amusing how I had actually believed such jokes. I should have learnt from my mistake the first time when things were extremely embarrassing and heartbreaking but no, I had to fall twice.


No idea why I keep going in circles. Telling myself how determined I am and should be but the next moment, I'm all gone again. Maybe it's the people up there playing a Sims prank on me. Making me wanna do something but cancelling out the action just because it's fun to see people become stuck. Lol.

I've been running around so much, I no longer know what' I'm thinking or feeling anymore. First minute, I want this but the next second, I want a whole lot of different thing.

It's so tough trying to figure things out.

The bad thing is, no matter how busy I am, I don't stop thinking.
While I work, I think about it.
While I talk. Eat. Drink. Text. Call. Stone. Read. Listen. Even while thinking about things, I'll still have a thought full of it at the same time. And it seems to have worsen.

Headache. Headache. Headache.