Cannot believe I've been running around for something that has always been nothing but a circle. As expected, it is, and always has been, merely a circle of illusion. Though I know it isn't as strong now, I still felt something when I learned about it. :/ Wow.
There's a great difference between choosing not to want and be told that you would not be able have. Lol. Joke.
ps: I wanna talk about it but I've no idea who to talk to or how to talk about it. :'(