For The Very First Time.........

For the very first time; my gut is telling me that things won't work out for us... It's weird because I've never had such a thought before. For the very first time; I do not have the want...? urge...? thoughts...? desire to actually try making things work. :/ No desire to put in the effort at all.

It's weird. Because I've always tried to go a step further each time when I get to know. Whether or not I can see if things would work out, I would still have the desire to try~ This time it's like reality has really gotten to me and I just can't be bothered to try... Since it usually ends the same way~ :/

Maybe it's the letdowns, negligence, forgotten experiences and heartbreaks that I've had before (&still having) that I lost all desire to keep hold of something; Lost all desire to make efforts in becoming closer.

Or maybe, it's just them...

It's weird..

I need more time to figure things out...



Anyway, I've been happy and back on track! Going out to have some fun is indeed what I need to inject into my mundane life when I was at my lowest! :D Love my bestfriends!


Just need to make sure I don't let myself be bothered by some things that I should actually be used to~~


TODDLES