Awareness and Preference.

Maybe she's right about awareness and preferences. Probably aware but prefers to keep things under the light. Keep the cat in the bag and be saved from clearing the cat-mess. Or maybe it's the similar mentality. What I think, you think so too kindda thing. :/

People advice to search for the answer. Find out the truth and put the thoughts at ease. It's easier to say that than to do that. Or maybe, most people would really do that. But there are still people who rather not. I rather not know so that I can still keep that glimmer of hope to believe what I want to; And not be stuck with the truth that may or may not be what you want to believe. Even if it means I have to live in confusion or have a heart filled with knots. :/

I rather be able to dream than to be tied down by reality.

Sometimes, talking to people helps you see things clearer. Makes things much easier to comprehend and definitely help enlighten that burden-feel.

It is going to take a while.