The Beloved

Was watching some drama when a thought randomly struck me;
There are just somethings/someone you'll never hardly forget.

First love...? First kiss...? Or even the first person who called you a "Bitch"...

There are just some 'memories' that will be kept somewhere under memory-lane until it's triggered to unwind itself all over again. Those... that usually hurts the most.
Then, you'll either weep at how silly you used to be or laugh it off...
You might be really wrong if you thought you got over the things you wanna forget; because you thought you've gotten over them or, temporarily "forgot" they actually happened.
I don't even think I make sense now. -.-

I had my virgin experience - in remembering what I thought I had long forgotten. (Like really really long!) But I am superrrrrrr sure the feelings are no longer the same. Maybe, it was just a desire to recall how were things like or something; I have no idea why myself! Lol.



Why do things have to be so complicated at times?

PS: I feel ugly.
PS: I suddenly remembered - why I'm afraid to FIL again.