A Roller Coaster Ride.

A long and emotional entry.

It's been a roller coaster ride for me. In the past week, I've felt a myriad of emotions; all mixed together to do a dark and bitter cocktail.
Frustrated, disgusted, upset, useless, annoyed, angry, a little hopeful and maybe happy...
(Well, I've had my fair share of happy moments. :D)





I'm sorry but I really have to pen this down.
I've finally seen how some of them truly are... Their "true colours", what most people would describe it as. I just need to rant about my unhappiness &what I've witness.
%Everyone shares the same sentiment when it comes to grouping with him. Yet, I don't see why one should do the extreme and cheer so freaking loud. No matter how much you hate the thought of it; the least you could do is suppress your emotion and cheer again later (when he's not in the vicinity, maybe). Have you spare a thought for him? :/
We're all experiencing the same feeling, all yearning to score well and all hesitant to group with him. But pushing him around like how you did, I think you've gone too far. The screaming and stuff; if you have noticed - you were the only one being so exaggerated, rude and heartless.%

*&&&, What if we do the same? Keep all of it for ourselves?! Bloody hell.*
Selfish, insensitive and crazy.
How I wish I'm annoyed, bothered and harsh enough to say all that straight to your face.
I'm sorry but I really have to pen this down.





At the end of the day, I realise how wrong I am was;
I'm not as strong as I always thought. I don’t think it’s possible; But, I’ll continue trying. Nothing is impossible, right? :)

Actually, I’m a little confused. I don’t know how I should feel about all the things said. But one thing for sure, I’m really exhausted; from all the suppressing and... well, acting maybe? Then again, it's not my fault. Things aren't exactly the way I wanted it to be; how things has progressed and stuff. If only I have handled it properly, results may have differed. *sigh. I can't turn back time, can I?
Sorry.



A long and emotional entry.
[[If you really cared, please please please don't ask me.
Because, I’ll be feeling alright after this. Really! :D
&, please don’t assume who I’m referring to; the last thing I want is to do explanations.]]
But, if you feel some pricks after reading it, I think you know what it means.
I've learnt to let unworthy things go. But, it's inevitable to ponder about them. Right? hehehe.


PS: It’s been a rough ride. I hope it stops soon or, I’ll just jump off the roller coaster. =x