Out of Control.

This new project is killing me. 

The workload. The stress.... 

I am spiralling out of control. I have no idea how to do better, apart from just doing things. I don't want to be reactive, but that is everything I am now. 

I know she is good for the team and would be good for my own learning. However, with her attempting to step into the inner circle, my mind automatically goes into self-blame mode. 

If I didn't slip in so many areas. 

If I did better in all these areas. 

Maybe, we won't need the extra eyes.