confused.

okay, i'm now in a super abnormal mood larhs!

sighs. what's wrong with me? what's wrong with the minds of people nowadays?

i'm really kindda worried for dear her. got an exclusive news about some fortune teller of some sort that has descriped her as someone useless in the family. not totally but no longer of much significance. but, i can't do anything. well, it's not because i don't want to but the first question is, do i even have the time?

sighs. sometimes, i really feel useless being a good for nothing friend. i can't be there when i WANT to be there for my friends. it's like always notified-after-it-happened-for-a-long-time, be-informed-be-someone-else/blog or not even being notifed because everything has been settled down. what's more, it's not only her~

i know sometimes we can't force one to tell us their problems or at least the things that are bothering them. but i just don't like it when i have to know it from someone else and act as if i know nothing but nuts~ of course i'm not blaming the one that shares the things that are bothering the actual person. anyway, the number of friends who doesn't know that i know things that have happened to them, is SUPER SADDENING and DEMORALISING~

just a piece of shyt!!

i'm kindda sick and tired of prompting her about something i knew long time ago by someone else but still protecting the person who told me. it's like.. URG!

anyway, i really don't get it. what's so good about being in a relationship at this particular moment other than the fact that it CAN be sweet most of the times.

people says: "you think that way because you have never been in one before"

i don't deny to that statement but i have to admit that i know how to feels like. it's not as though i never have a crush before although i know it's different. but, at least i know how it feels to like someone. what's more i HAVE friends who are in relationships and i OBSERVE with QUITE ACUTE INSTINCTS. not being arrogant although many will feel that way.

she always claims that she loves him. but, loving one doesn't mean to stick with that person most of the time. it's also not about one sacrificing for the other continously. she never fails to complain about being alone and stuffs but she never consider other people than her good old boyfriend. sighs. can her mind just focus on studies now than that? it's not wrong being in a relationship at this age, in fact, it's NORMAL, 100% NORMAL. it's just that unhealthy relationship doesn't benefit us for long. sighs.

forget it. no one knows how it is being trapped~ wanting to help but restricting to be seem as if i know nothing at all.