Why is this happening again?!

Why am I being put through this same cycle again...? This is what…… the 4th time?!

Is this a result of a decision on my part? It can’t be... I certainly did not choose who to have feelings for. I don’t know what am I doing; If I am doing anything right or wrong.

Why do I keep falling into this trap? Why do I keep having feelings for someone who won’t reciprocate?

Am I less deserving than anyone else? Then the other person?

I am so tired of this shit. Of having to go through the same damn thing with another person. How I wish feelings are like switches that I can just turn off when I want to. I am so frustrated that this is so familiar.

Platonic. These are all just platonic.